OK, in my opinion, this incident, if not making me the worst mom ever, certainly puts me in the running. Last week when listening to an author speak about her son with high functioning autism, a lady interjected with comments about her DD with Down's syndrome. As she's talking, the fleeting (like not even a nanosecond long, honest) thought ran through my mind: I wish my DD had a "visible" disability instead of Asperger's Syndrome.
Now for the uninitiated, Asperger's is a form of high functioning autism. So for all intents and purposes, Aspies look "normal". However, they usually have issues with social interactions & sensory issues. This means they do not communicate as effectively as neurotypical peers and the slightest stimulation may provoke a meltdown. Now, I'm not talking whining, sniffling, etc. I'm talking "throw yourself on the ground, scream @ the top of your lungs, sobbing uncontrollably meltdown".
So back to the offending thought, suppose you see a child in the throes of a similar meltdown @ your local store. What is the most likely first reaction? C'mon, be honest now ... It's not "oh dear, that poor child. Whatever could be upsetting him/her so?" It's "why can't that mother/father control that child?" or "what a spoiled brat! If that were my child, they certainly wouldn't act like that!" However, if a child with an obvious disability has an episode, they would be met with immediate sympathy & understanding.
Now I am not saying I want sympathy or pity for my DD or myself (well maybe a little for me, haha). I would just like people to think before they have a knee jerk reaction about why a child has lost control. While meltdowns are no fun for the onlookers, consider the poor child who is totally out of control. They are angry or scared; they don't need the added burden of judgmental bystanders as they regain their composure.
Aspies, while signs of their disability are not readily apparent, ARE disabled & deserving of a little understanding. As 1 in 110 kids are diagnosed with some form of autism, it would behoove those unfamiliar with the spectrum to educate themselves. Then they can provide the support & understanding needed by the parent & child, rather than judgment.
If this makes me the worst mom ever, then so be it.